Merry Christmas to everyone!

So I just want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas Eve! I hope everyone enjoys today and tomorrow. Just be thankful for everything. :) Everything happens for a reason.


R.I.P Grandpa and Casssie..... I am going to miss you both. You bioth have made a difference in my life. Thank you both for giving me what I needed. I love you both and I will meet you there someday when god needs me.

Brick Wall

Things just hit me like a brick wall. Today, December 22, 2009, my great grandfather died. I haven't really grasped this whole concept I guess. I am seriously going to miss him. R.I.P grandpa <3

Three days before Christmas. I am still looking forward to that :|
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.......Just told that another person died today. My grandpas friend Cassy. R.I.P Cassy. we will miss both of you

FUN!!!!!

WITH ESKÄN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) having fun watching her little sister play with a little whistle. Her new name(well not new) is little devil.... >:} kinda want to talk to Travisssssss <3 ILY!!!!!! Going to me nana's tomorrow. and then hopefully hanging out with travis on Sunday.

I have no I D E A..... just realization i guess <3

If only everyone were so nice. The people who meet at my house are so awesome. I love them. They really show good to me. God is surrounding us. Go moments are also amazing. The fact that I cannot really afford to buy Christmas presents for friends and then a teacher gives you a lot of stuff to choose from and to give.... is just AMAZING. Then if your mom needs help with recovering(long story) and this friend of ours is living with us and helping her to just ..... let go (and by the way: Everyone needs to learn that sometime). People need to be grateful for what they have and don't look at the expensive things in the store that are pointless. just be happy that you have a laptop to read this. or a house... maybe. and food even if there isn't a lot. just think that just because sometimes a dinner isn't made for you at dinner time you have clean water or lean cuisine to eat. I now this post sounds a little odd but I am just so happy that I have had a chance to meet so many people and go to so many places. AND yes sometimes jealousy does throw me off a ledge but then i can climb right back up because I have everything I need.
well I really need to go to bed. I have been staying up late and that is not very good for me cuz i have to get up early. Well i think i can wait 8-9 more day for Christmas and vacation. see i am grateful for vacation. simple things... Goodnight... I LOVE YOU!!! 11-11-09
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the loneliness i sit in today.

I sit here overwhelmed with homework. I stayed home sick today and slept for the majority. I also read Lovely Bones. I think i am on page 54. not sure though. It is an odd book. I got a text from Travis this morning while he was in advisory. I was sleeping but i woke up to the sound of my phone. talked to him for a little while then he had to go. I love him. 11-11-09 <3
I really don't like being sick having to stay home from school. I really do not like it at all!!!! I missed science which is a problem and then here at home i sit with my mom telling em i should ha gone to school. I would have fallen asleep and not been able to breathe. Because that is just what I did here at home.and I also ate but mostly slept and read. In language arts we are reading the first stave of the Christmas Carol. I am going to school tomorrow.

i have to go and finish my homework

I can only be greatful for everything that has happened to me... I have so much. But then, you look at what I need and don't have. Maybe christmas will help... nope. We can't get a tree. how is the christmas suppose to be good? I know that being with the family is good and having a nice meal and that will be nice. I have so many things that not other people have. I really don't know where i am going wit this but i guess you all should be thankful for what you have. I kn0w that Thanksgiving is passed but that doesnt mean that being thankful should be forgotten.

I love you <3 11-11-09