Please disregard my posts from 2011 and before, Thank you.

I have definitely grown up. Crazy how time treats you. what do you do to it? Use it, spend it, waste it, enjoy it, embrace it. Time.
I have different goals than I did last year. Junior year :D

Happiest I have been for a long time.

AFS

I AM SUPER INTERESTED IN TRAVELING THROUGH AFS. I need to think about fundraising. have any ideas???
there are:
 Gap year programs
Spring semester programs
summer family live in experiences
community services

I graduate in the year of 2014 in the winter... (first semester) :D
I think I am going to work for a whole semester and save as much money as possible and also write an essay for a possible scholarship.

Needs

I need a journal.
I need braces.
I need money for Ballet.
I need money for volleyball.
I need not to have needs,
that is all i need
~Rachel

people have wants and needs...

Wants: money for ballet and volleyball
Needs: Braces and Journal

Sitting...Thinking...Tired.

To whom it may concern (whoever reads this),
Hello I am finally on this site again.
I'm not sure where to begin.

In school there are people, students, who still have yet to discover maturity. I am in ninth grade and I am dealing with things. ridiculous things like:

I am dating Ryder. All the guys are saying things such as, " hey, ryder is over there." or "RYDERRRRRRR" okay guys do you really think i don't have eyes to see or ears to hear... First of all you have no need to yell when you are right next to me or two people away. i know his name. I can see that he is right there.thank you though. Yes, _______ <--( insert any guy's name there), I just got done hugging him i know he is going to advisory. now that i am done quoting the rubbish that is coming out of the guys' mouth i have one question to ask: Would you agree with me that they are being immature? this lead me to something else i am allowed to rant about
WHY DO PEOPLE CARE ABOUT WHO PEOPLE DATE?
yes it's interesting to know about who is dating who. Going as far as starting rumors about couples or making fun of one of the people who are in a relationship. making fun of a person for dating someone feels fantastic.I thought it was about love not popularity. I guess i havent read the most recent Facebook port about what's in on relationships. I am all about the person and not what other people think.
Think before you speak is all i have to say

What whould I do when I am confused?? I wish patience was a part of me.... RIGHT now. Zach hasn't texted me. I am so confused.
what do I do?? this is so complicated. I wish it weren't but nothing works that way...

First impression? was it that? so many things to think about.

Merry Christmas to everyone!

So I just want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas Eve! I hope everyone enjoys today and tomorrow. Just be thankful for everything. :) Everything happens for a reason.


R.I.P Grandpa and Casssie..... I am going to miss you both. You bioth have made a difference in my life. Thank you both for giving me what I needed. I love you both and I will meet you there someday when god needs me.

Brick Wall

Things just hit me like a brick wall. Today, December 22, 2009, my great grandfather died. I haven't really grasped this whole concept I guess. I am seriously going to miss him. R.I.P grandpa <3

Three days before Christmas. I am still looking forward to that :|
:'|



.......Just told that another person died today. My grandpas friend Cassy. R.I.P Cassy. we will miss both of you

FUN!!!!!

WITH ESKÄN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) having fun watching her little sister play with a little whistle. Her new name(well not new) is little devil.... >:} kinda want to talk to Travisssssss <3 ILY!!!!!! Going to me nana's tomorrow. and then hopefully hanging out with travis on Sunday.

I have no I D E A..... just realization i guess <3

If only everyone were so nice. The people who meet at my house are so awesome. I love them. They really show good to me. God is surrounding us. Go moments are also amazing. The fact that I cannot really afford to buy Christmas presents for friends and then a teacher gives you a lot of stuff to choose from and to give.... is just AMAZING. Then if your mom needs help with recovering(long story) and this friend of ours is living with us and helping her to just ..... let go (and by the way: Everyone needs to learn that sometime). People need to be grateful for what they have and don't look at the expensive things in the store that are pointless. just be happy that you have a laptop to read this. or a house... maybe. and food even if there isn't a lot. just think that just because sometimes a dinner isn't made for you at dinner time you have clean water or lean cuisine to eat. I now this post sounds a little odd but I am just so happy that I have had a chance to meet so many people and go to so many places. AND yes sometimes jealousy does throw me off a ledge but then i can climb right back up because I have everything I need.
well I really need to go to bed. I have been staying up late and that is not very good for me cuz i have to get up early. Well i think i can wait 8-9 more day for Christmas and vacation. see i am grateful for vacation. simple things... Goodnight... I LOVE YOU!!! 11-11-09
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the loneliness i sit in today.

I sit here overwhelmed with homework. I stayed home sick today and slept for the majority. I also read Lovely Bones. I think i am on page 54. not sure though. It is an odd book. I got a text from Travis this morning while he was in advisory. I was sleeping but i woke up to the sound of my phone. talked to him for a little while then he had to go. I love him. 11-11-09 <3
I really don't like being sick having to stay home from school. I really do not like it at all!!!! I missed science which is a problem and then here at home i sit with my mom telling em i should ha gone to school. I would have fallen asleep and not been able to breathe. Because that is just what I did here at home.and I also ate but mostly slept and read. In language arts we are reading the first stave of the Christmas Carol. I am going to school tomorrow.

i have to go and finish my homework

I can only be greatful for everything that has happened to me... I have so much. But then, you look at what I need and don't have. Maybe christmas will help... nope. We can't get a tree. how is the christmas suppose to be good? I know that being with the family is good and having a nice meal and that will be nice. I have so many things that not other people have. I really don't know where i am going wit this but i guess you all should be thankful for what you have. I kn0w that Thanksgiving is passed but that doesnt mean that being thankful should be forgotten.

I love you <3 11-11-09

classroom

in class...... language art to be exact. should be doing classswork but i can't read because it is WAY too loud in this class with the table next to me.

On the Phone

Never had so much homework! Can't wait to go on CHRISTMAS vacation..... now that Thanksgiving break is over. So I should go and do more homework. Social Studies, Music, Reading.

Daily life:
wake up at five thirty
eat breakfast
go to school
come home
do homework
eat dinner
do more homework
go to bed at nine

Over the Weekend

I am at a condo with Elizabeth still. Having fun really not looking forward to going back to school. I cannot wait till the end of each school day. I hopefully get to hang out with Travis.
Did you know that Christmas is in 28 days!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Bored

So I sound a little insane for posting so many posts but I am a little bit bored. I am a little hungry and Hyper. I can't wait to eat.
11-11-09 Rachel

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Please follow me somehow. I don't realy know how this blog thing works. Oh well.

All alone..... without you.

I sit here on this couch with Elizabeth. She and I are sitting on the same couch and my feet are cold. We are at a condo of our friend's. I am a little hungry but that is always normal.
ONE PROBLEM: i do not like being short. I know that I am but I also cannot help that I have a short mother, I have a tall dad but my mother is short! I don't like it but it does not bug me until it is pointed out all the time. Being short is not a big deal but neither is being tall. Does it make a difference? I mean I wish I was tall but i have to accept the fact that I AM short. OH WELL I have to let things go.
I miss him so much. I love him so much. 11-11-09 <3 Travis (and by the way he is not my brother) :)
~Rachel

The power of Skype

I love skype. I also love cheese houses and roads I can walk with Travis on. E says hi. I'm with E. Wish I could be with Travis. I am really happy that I am with Elizabeth and I am with her until Sunday. then we have to go back to school. blahhhh. Oh well....
I love you <3 11-11-09

Alone in my room...hidden

I hide here all alone. sitting on my bed waiting for elizabeth to call. It is Thanksgiving today and i am done eating. I have had my pie and I am, for the most part, happy. While my family yell (this is how they talk) to eachother to hear over another person talk, I sit in my room. Don't call me antisocial but I do not like to talk to to my grandfather becuase all he talks about is fishing and the sports I am going to play in high school, I DO NOT NEED TO WORRY ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW THANK YOU! I alreadyhave enough to worry about. On another note, I can't wait till I go to Sugarloaf. Elizabeth could not be a better friend. We have been hanging out pretty much non stop except today( Thanksgiving). The other night was a not so good night actually it was horrible never been worse. My brother who is 17 and does not listen to people like me would not leave us alone. Through the whole time I have been frinds with Elizabeth my family has loved her. We are not a lot alike but that is what makes us best friends. so anyway the other nigh when my brother would not leave us alone was the night that i sat in the bathroom for half an hour and outside for another 20 minutes. Elizabeth went looking for me to see if she could find me. I prayed to god that she would go looking for me to show me if she was actuallt a true friend or not and when she found me i knew she could not be anything better than who she is. My brother is a good brother dont get me wrong but when around other people reading his face it's like he does not look like he wants anything to do with me. my brother is not a dependable person. no one is really if you look at it clossely.
I would also like to thank you god for having our house be blessed with fun and joy. I love when my mom is having fun. Oh yeah and scott i love you too. you are a fun person. GOOD JOB lynk im glad we could win twice in a row against BELINDA! :) <3
well I have to go pack for sugarloaf I wil try to write on Sunday. not like there is anyone to read this but oh well. still time consuming I love you Travis 11-11-09